Freak Like Me

“What’s the freakiest thing you’ve ever done?”

One of the most loaded questions a guy can ask me.  I have often wondered what they really want to hear.  In addition, what is the definition of a freak.

My usual response is what you may consider freaky may actually be normal to others,  as I try to skirt around the issue.

Were I to respond by saying that I had participated in a number of threesomes.  Alternatively I could say that I had done it with the lights on.  Would either satisfy their curiosity or have them running scared?  During all the years of being active, this is a question I have raised many times with my inner consciousness.  I have walked the tightrope of trying to be as honest as I can be about myself without scaring a prospective partner off.  I’ve also attempted to turn the tables on the questioner to gauge a better understanding of where they are.  Time after time I am left with the response:

“don’t answer a question with a question”

Now this response is a cop out by the original questioner.

It has led me to ask myself why I’ve done certain things and have come to the conclusion that it is all  down to the sizzle factor you have with an individual as well as how much you may trust them.  In addition, it also depends on whether you want to settle down with the guy in question or just kick it for fun.

I would say to any guy though…don’t ask the question if you can’t answer it yourself.

To reuse, recycle or discard for good (2) – Digging in the bin.

I promised I would return to the issue of digging in the bin, and the merits of doing this.

Many of the discarded men have attempted to get back into my life. One of my good friends thinks that I am on a path to self destruction as I am talking to people that I decided were no good for me.

The current contents of the bin that are hoping to be reused are, in no particular order:

• “The One from my Ends” aka “Trouble” with a capital T. Even during my relationship he was a constant presence. Some would say like a bad smell. I was convinced we had got into the friend zone but I was mistaken. I have thought long and hard about why it didn’t work out between the two of us the first time around, and I realised that despite the obvious sizzle/ chemistry there is an obvious flaw to any plan… I swear he is a major fantasist. Booty calls with the premise that he is going away for a while. As can be seen there is no reason to revisit this. Drama would be the result.  Despite being sexy as hell it could be argued that he is an archetypical wasteman as the list of issues are too long to mention.  Result: Discard.
• “The Original FB”.  An FB for those that aren’t aware is a guy who seems content with a no strings relationship.  My FB is a guy I’ve known for years.  He was originally the rebound guy following the break up of a previous relationship.  He helped me through it, and is a great shoulder to lean on.  However, as some might say I can’t get it twisted – he is a major commitment phobe.  In all the years I’ve known him he has never had a serious girlfriend, just a series of links.  This is why he is in the bin.  Result: Reuse with potential for recycling.

I’m sure  more may resurface, they always do.  Just can’t think of them at the moment.